Sunday, July 27, 2008

Its Been A Long Time

I haven't written in a while. I regret this. There have been so many events and happenings in the last 2 months and its a shame that I haven't documented my feelings about them. This summer has been a learning process for me. I guess anything thats worth it is a learning process but this summer especially. I spent 3 weeks at home after being in Paris for a semester and I realized that was far too short a time at home. Leaving was hard. But getting back into the groove of New York City after being in Paris and then in Nebraska was even harder. The pace was faster then I remembered and my mind was slow. New York felt different after living in Paris. Living abroad changes perceptions but I didn't realize how much until I was back in what I thought was my favorite city. Eventually, I fell into place but it took much longer than expected. Just as I felt like New York and I were fitting together again, I uprooted to move to DC for an internship in the Senate. Now here I am being the public service wonk, commuting everyday and working the 9-5 in a government building doing menial tasks that are boring but necessary. Of course that work is interrupted by visits and lectures by the most important people in our government. But all of these changes and this constant moving has taken its toll on me. I am ready for stability more than I ever have been. A home, I place where I feel like I can let everything go. I just wish I knew where to find it.